Life is a series of living up to bad decisions. Where people learn to grow to the extent of becoming numb to pain and bullshit. Pain can alter one's personality. It can serve as a drive to change people. But before it does, pain reveals our true selves first, our fragile side- the one that we have been keeping to everybody including ourselves. It brings out who we really are, what we are capable of and what we hide. Then pain takes over us. Thus, turning us into somebody else we never knew.
People often resort to shutting themselves out to joy, forgiveness, and hope after experiencing pain. Due to reasons such as failing to accomplish their goals, getting their heart broken, being ignored by people who mean most to them and getting sick of wrong accusations. It's not that we intend to succumb to the pain, but sometimes circumstances have a way of causing us to view things differently. Because we get hurt, we spend more time suffering, sulking, drowning to negativity and giving in to passivity than finding out how to overcome it. Part of it may have been our fault, and we have no right to complain that we experience these ugly experiences, but try to think of it in a rather positive way. Perhaps, these are just challenges disguised as blessings. Maybe something good will come out of all these. Nobody expects you to get over it in a day. Change doesn't happen rapidly, but it's bound to happen, still. Besides, it's not only you who experience these things. Everybody does. We just don't tend to open up about our fuck ups in life. But trust me, everyone has done something that they regret or feel bad about. Everyone has something that they carry with their hearts. Everyone has a baggage. Everyone has something that they worry about. You are not the only one who feel this pain. Somebody out there feels it, too. So know that you can open up to someone and make yourself feel better in some ways. Believe in yourself that you can survive it. Because we all did. You will, too.
Remember life is a roller coaster. It will never run out of ups and downs. You will not stay forever at the bottom. Loneliness does not last forever even when it feels like it will. Instead of dragging yourself down, don't you think it's time to lift yourself up? Only people who make excuses don't want it bad enough. Hold your head up high. You got this.
